“Do not be too moral. You may cheat yourself out of much life. Aim above morality. Be not simply good; be good for something.” –Thoreau

29 April 2010

Queries and self-doubt.

I've begun mailing out query letters for my book recently, and I had to make a pretty tough decision. The book was written two separate ways, with two separate second chapters, and I had to make a decision about which to include in my mailings. Which moved the story forward most effectively? Which felt more like me, and more like my characters? For that matter, which did I like more?

I made a choice to go with my first instinct, and keep Finn and Enaya's story-lines as separate as possible throughout the book. It was not easy. I'm still not totally sure the time-line of events makes sense, and I worry that keeping the second and third chapters separate (rather than combining them into one longer second chapter) makes it feel as if the story takes longer to get off the ground. I don't really doubt the importance of the events included, or even the quality of the writing, but I'm concerned that when asked for 30 page samples I'll be sending a whole lot of expositiion and not enough action.

What do you do? Going over and over these sorts of dilemmas is akin to beating your head against a wall. I've spent- literally- months trying to come to terms with this segment of the book, and in the end I will stand by this solution. It feels right to me. And if my agent/editor/publishers hate it, well then I will fix it. Although, if they hate the second and third chapters of the book I'm not likely to have an agent/editor/publisher. Ugh.

On a positive note, I do love the first chapter. So I guess I can always hope they do too. Gods, I really hope they do.

Blessings, everyone. Enjoy the sunshine.